peeks into my life dealing with everyday life and obstacles as well as obstacles of dealing with disabilities and accessibility obstacles, Chronic Pain due to broken spinal rods, living on pain medications, dealing with anxiety/depression, experiencing the newness of love, and fighting for my right to live and love my life in an ableist society.
Yesterday, Wed March 18, 2020, while I was using the “dog shaver” to see about Beignet’s loose dog hair, she was more hyper than usual and wouldn’t keep still. Long story short, she moved while I was going down her back with it, and when she moved, I slipped and got the back of one of her legs- a small cut on her leg and bleeding a little. We went inside, I got bacitracin, gauze, bandaid, and medical tape and bandaged her up. I walked away to put the stuff away and come back to find she had already chewed halfway through the tape, gauze, and bandaid.
Later that night, I decided to practice my photography skills and used Beignet as my model and uploaded them to her Instagram to try to build up her following and add to her content. I am trying to get her some brand deals; I am almost like those moms who push their kids into casting calls. ugh. Not good, but I can’t help it, she is just so cute and a pretty dog and so photogenic.
Today, Beignet was itching and scratching alot so I decided to take her outside and give her a good brush/comb out. I also found one of those dog hair shaver things that she used to be scared of when she was a puppy; good news, she is no longer scared of it, and it got alot of her loose hair off. She’d probably look alot prettier if she had a bath, maybe David and I will bathe her this weekend. I think I will keep up with her daily grooming though, it seems to be helping her alot.
After an hour or two of grooming outside, we came back in and decided to play. She has so many toys that sometimes it is so hard for her to decide what toy she definitely wants and will start with one, then leave it alone after i throw it, to go find a different toy! HAHA.
Anyway, it was a pretty chill day, and I guess with the hysteria and panic surrounding CoronaVirus, I will have alot of time to just be at home and spend time with my wonderful furbaby.
So around 3:15 p.m. on Saturday, March 8, 2020, I received an email from email@example.com saying I had gotten $250.00 from a Jeremy Fontenot. I found that strange considering I don’t know any Jeremy Fontenots and when I looked at details the email was addressed to firstname.lastname@example.org not my Jamie.email@example.com so why did it go to my gmail? Even stranger, the person wrote “for tickets” in the details for the transaction. What tickets? I wasn’t selling any tickets or anything. I was faced with a moral decision to make..”Do I keep the money even though I know it wasn’t intended for me even though I could really use it?” or “Do I do the right thing, email the person, tell them the mixup and send the money back?” I did what I would want someone to do if it was me, I emailed them and then returned the money to them, even though I really (really, really, really) wanted to keep it. I did however get something out of it; not monitary, but something much better- Pride in myself, and I got a compliment from the individual in an email, “Thank you so much. I really appreciate your kind heart in this situation. It could’ve gone in a negative direction, but because of you, it was very nice. This gives me one more example to tell of how there are great people in this world. I hope you have a fantastic day and blessings your way. By the way, I told my cousin that since yall emails are so close, I advised him to change it up a little so this confusion doesn’t happen again. Y’all already have the same name! LOL.” and I emailed back, telling him “LOL, Only difference really is I am female. I’ve been scammed out of money before, so I get it and I’m disabled so I guess I have a lot of empathy I guess, I dont know. Anyway thanks for the compliments. Would I liked $250 ,sure who wouldn’t? But Keeping it wouldn’t be right. Anyway God bless and If you would like to know more about my life and story, I have 2 blog pages and a youtube channel,” and gave him the links to them. He emailed back saying ” I will definitely look at your youtube and read about your story.” So I possibly got a new online follower out of it 🙂
Originally I had been training Beignet to be a service dog and eventually with all my pain from broken rods and then surgery recovery, It kind of fell by the way-side, however, I am getting back into it. Today We started training to try to get her to retrieve coke plastic bottle for me (in case I dropped it or something).
Ever since adopting Beignet, she has always had a distinct feature: her crooked little tail.
At first, seeing it broke my heart, because it’s like “aww she has a disability too!” and I also thought maybe she got it caught in something/ it got infected and had to be removed/ or some heartless monster just decided to cut her tail, but I actually later found out (once I joined some dog groups- especially rescue dogs and foxhounds- which most people think Beignet is) that there is a gene mutation that can cause “Natural bobtail”- an animal’s tail which due to a mutated gene grows unusually short or is missing completely. Finding that out, made me come to appreciate her little special tail so much now.
One thing she does that is so cute and adorable is that when she tries to wag that little nub, her hips wiggle too, and hence why I sometimes call her “wiggle butt,” or “wiggles mcwiggleton.”
She also has the most cutest and adorable sleeping positions!
and Lastly, today, I was in a foxhound group on facebook- asking about if all foxhounds “shed like there is no tomorrow” because Beignet sheds so much that I swifter once a day and by the end of the week, I swear I have enough dog hairs to make a small sweater! it is ridiculous how much she sheds but she also has really bad skin allergies and itching. Poor thing, I have her on a daily antihistamine, special poultry free dog food because we have a suspicion she is allergic to chicken, fish oil on her dog food and just currently started doing coconut oils as well, I brush/comb her once a day(sometimes more if she is really itchy), and we bathe her every 2 weeks (sometimes earlier if again, she is really itchy); and the poor girl still scratches and licks herself, has welts under her fur, has dandruff flakes, and sheds a lot. Anyway, in the group, I asked about shedding badly, and the following screenshot has to be the funniest and best reply ever!
My fiance and I had made plans to originally go to another parade this weekend, however upon waking up, my body decided to ruin that: sinus allergies, major migraines, back pain, and spasms; However, I found a way to not let it keep me down.
Sure, we didn’t go to the parade, but instead of moping and letting it ruin my day, I found a fun way to entertain myself; and all I needed was some mardi gras beads and my dog.
“How can that possibly be more fun than going out and socializing at a parade?” Well, as much fun as a parade is with the socializing and being with people, I wouldn’t have really enjoyed it because I was feeling so miserable with my health; but here at home in the warmth, I can have my own parade. Just me and my dog, who probably thought her mom had completely lost her mind. haha!
I took some beads and put on my pandora music and started dancing (yes I was hurting, but just swaying side to side and side-stepping, isn’t much to hurt), and took some beads and started throwing them around- once they landed on the floor, Beignet, would go over and sniff at them.
After throwing a few beads, I then took some and put them on Beignet like she had caught them. However, I think her favorite was when I brought out a light-up rubber boomerang I had gotten at the Rio Parade last weekend; In Hinds sight, I should’ve known she would love this item because she LOVES her frisbees! As soon as I pulled out the boomerang, that little nub of her crooked tail started wagging and her butt then began its “wiggle”. I tossed it to the couch a few times, but I didn’t wanna risk breaking stuff in the house, so we went into the backyard for a couple of tosses until I got too cold and was like “Okay B, Time to go in. We can play with the boomerang more tomorrow when the sun is out and hopefully warmer.”
As soon as we came in, I put the boomerang out of reach so that she wouldn’t destroy it (Power Chewer problems Lol) and she just sat near where I had put it out of reach and whined and whined until she realized I was not gonna relent and she went lay down and is now fast asleep.
Sure, I could’ve had some fun at the parade maybe, but I had a lot of fun here- just me, my fiance (who after helping me do some housework and he did yard work, is now enjoying his free time playing his video games), the cats outside in their warm (lighted) cat box/makeshift house, and Beignet- whose “mom” uses her for her own entertainment-but she knows I love her. ❤
Anyway, hope everyone else has a great rest of their weekend and remember: Don’t let life keep you down. Find a little fun in anything at all, smile, and that can turn everything around!
Back in Sept or October, I accidently dropped my laptop and since then it has been on the fritz not turning on unless plugged into a TV screen via HDMI cable (until recently when that even stopped working) and I am currently using Ipad tablet, mobile phone, and mom’s laptop to take care of things I need to do online; However, I like to blog and do Youtube. I cannot do these things without proper equipment. I have a tripod, I have a 10 year old camcorder (Toshiba HD camio I think—could use a newer more updated one), a 4 year old digital camera that has video capabilities (Olympus TG-4); I also have several different web-cams.
In addition to equipment, I also need money to implement some of my content ideas: Shopping hauls, bark box for Beignet, Pet store trips with Beignet and buying whatever she “touches,” As Seen On tv product testings, doing stuff with my fiance’ niece, Serenity, in addition to other things that would be fun content. however, it all requires money and due to having been in a $700 apartment+ $222.00 in internet/cable at Cox+ $20.00 water bill+$60-$100 (varies) Electricity bill and only receiving $783.00 in SSI a month and my fiance’ currently out of work and despite putting in multiple applications and resumes in various places, he is having a hard time finding a job. Thankfully Feb. is our last month of rent, we don’t have any internet/cable with cox this month, we do have the water and electricity that equals about $50.00-ish, but then we also have a few bills here at my parents house- they let us move in while they truck drive: No rent, we handle: cat food, water bill, internet, and electricity- but for this month we just have the water bill for mom’s house and thats about $30.00 ish.
I know after this month, things won’t be as stressful money wise. so even if its just a few dollars, it will greatly be appreciated and with your help, you can help build a better channel/blog with better content from me! So thank you in advance!
(Paypal info- email address is: Jamie.firstname.lastname@example.org)